My first spiritual mentor was a woman named Suzanne. She had a knack for redirecting me when I was sure that life doesn't get better for people with problems like mine. No matter how I looked at it, my life was dysfunctional from every angle. I tried to do the "next right thing" and seek the will of God to the best of my ability. I tried, but my life didnt' improve much in the beginning.

I remember getting angry with God. Didn't He see how hard I was trying? Didn't He care that I was a single mother with a baby who DID NOT SLEEP? I actually served my twelve and nine-year-old sons coffee before school. None of us were sleeping.

When I called Suzanne to tell her I was mad at God, she always replied, "It's okay to be mad at God. He's big and He can take it. Are you willing to believe He will bring you further than your current circumstances?" 

"I guess so. I mean, yes." Later I would pray:

"Thank you God for directing my steps. I believe You are leading me out of my current circumstances with each step. Bless my steps."

It was a slow process but looking back I can see that each time I allowed God to change my heart, that change was reflected in my everyday life. Ten years later, that's still the way it works for me.

Psalms 119: 105 is precious to me. "The Lord is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."

It reminds me that change starts with me, the very place I stand and expands to my future.

Where do you stand today? If you're in a tough circumstance, are you willing to believe God will bring you further? If yes, will you pray that prayer? If you're not. It's okay. God is big and He can handle whatever you need to say to Him. He always blesses an honest heart.

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